Cathy the Librarian

New Year’s blabitty blahs.

2009-01-01T02:27:33Z

My sister made me post some new year’s resolutions and I really have been planning on posting on my blog at some point these last FOUR MONTHS. Yee gads. Has it been that long? Sam and I were IMing back and forth on Facebook and she made me come Read More......(read more)

Sensation #3

2008-08-23T23:59:46Z

The absolute cold sweat of fear and dread you get when you find out that the reason your three year old son is soaking wet is because he fell into a pool while you were watching other people’s children (not that it makes a difference, but I think Read More......(read more)

Sensation #2

2008-08-20T23:23:59Z

Having acute pain and being able to do nothing about it. Being unable to get comfortable no matter what position you try to sit or lie in. Trying to breathe through the pain only to bring up all that steak you ate for lunch. Then you rush to the hospital Read More......(read more)

Sensation #1

2008-08-18T03:26:14Z

Icy hands or ice cubes on your back when you’ve got a horrible sun burn, your skin burns to the touch and you can’t bear to have anything touch it. Read More......(read more)

yup yup yup

2008-08-18T03:20:15Z

I’ve lost track of how long its been. Again. This summer has just gone by so quickly. I’ve been so busy and by the time I get to post on the blog I’m EXHAUSTED! … well and I need time for Facebook. I was reading my sister’s Read More......(read more)

scary scary… or in otherwords, I’m getting OLD!

2008-07-16T03:40:05Z

While in college I was working at a public library in the city. In that public library in the city there was a lady working there… okay so there were quite a few ladies working there, but bear with me. That lady had two kids. One was a girl who Read More......(read more)

still here part duex

2008-07-06T02:32:07Z

Here I am again to warn you… POETRY ALERT!! After typing down these poems, I realized that this is often how I write poetry. I try not to think about them too much, but I blast them out as quickly as possible, which is why, as you’ll find Read More......(read more)

06/24/08 11:40 pm

2008-07-06T02:16:22Z

sometimes I feel so beat down so hollowed out I no longer feel real a rag down with the stuffing removed a book with the pages torn out an empty ripped up bag * I feel sometimes like no one understands I am alone and stranded in a dark and treacherous Read More......(read more)

06/24/08 11:36 pm

2008-07-06T02:04:59Z

some moments I just feel so old so used up so tired and it makes me wonder why why do people do this day after day after day and then I look in his deep brown eyes my eyes and I hear his laughter and I see his crooked smile so pure so innocent and I begin Read More......(read more)

06/23/08 11:00 pm

2008-07-06T02:01:49Z

who am I to expect any more when I desire the world and I am handed a small crumpled piece of paper and empty promises where can I go to open my wings to open my mind and let myself soar Read More......(read more)

06/23/08 10:45 pm and 10:53 pm

2008-07-06T02:00:05Z

These poems were really too awful to post, but I thought I should let you know that I wrote them. Read More......(read more)

06/23/08 10:36 pm

2008-07-06T01:58:21Z

wake up wake up WAKE UP! was it all a nightmare you’re still not here with me and I can feel the emptiness a tight hard ache in my chest can this be removed and tossed away? why can’t I just forget I was frightened too even though you’ll Read More......(read more)

06/23/08 10:29 pm

2008-07-06T01:55:24Z

who were you to be would you give good kisses warm hugs and laugh as bright as the sun would you find every moment just as precious as I do even when I must spend it without you would you cry when mommy has to leave or would you forget as soon as the Read More......(read more)

06/23/08 10:23 pm

2008-07-06T01:52:26Z

why are there no answers only questions left unfulfilled such pressure I am buzzing with it immense unfathomable I know I will never ever break from its grip I am trapped with no where to go no going forward no going back and definitely no standing still Read More......(read more)

06/23/08 10:15 pm

2008-07-06T01:49:54Z

a light breeze brushes away the hairs tickling my face tenderness I need so much right now so slightly I smell lilacs before they are gone I feel anger building bubbling frothing in me waiting for me to burst at the seams but its not proper to scream Read More......(read more)